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CS: How Laura converted to Islam
my name is laura and i am an 22 years old german convert. i was raised in a christian family, protestant. the family of my father is atheist but my father converted to christianity when he got cancer in 1984. The family of my mother is very practicing religious, my grandfather was pastor and my uncle still is a pastor (i dont even know if pastor is the right word for a protestant?).
my father died in 1992 when i was 6 and my brother 8, from that time on my mother raised us alone and did her job very very well, may Allah reward her for everything she did and sacrificed for us, ameen.
maybe a bit similar to you i was raised christian but we were not practicing. when my father was still with us he used to take us to church every sunday but after his death we never went again, maybe just sometimes when my grandfather or my uncle had a special speech.
as i became a teenager i started to doubt some things like how could jesus be the son of god and at the same time father, son and holy ghost? so i started to become even more distant to my religion...when i was 16 years old i went for one year to brazil to live there as an exchange student. i was located in the north-east, the city called Recife and though this country is amazingly beautiful it is so poor and dangerous, especially where i lived at that time!
i had really so much fear, i was afraid that i would never return to germany or at least not in good conditions! and so i started to search for protection, first physical protection, but there was none! one day i realised the only one who can protect me and support me and bring me home safe is god, and the only way for me to get close to him is by having a religion i could believe in.
i remember that in a letter to my friend i wrote her that when i get home healthy and in good condition i would start to believe in god. so, still in brazil i started to search for a religion that would be right for me, that i could believe in without doubt and that could finally give the peace to my heart and take away my fear. i started to search about the very basic ideas of any religions... i read about hinduism, buddism and so on... i think they had very nice ideas and beautiful thoughts but it was nothing touching my heart.
then finally i read about islam, that there is just one god who sends his message by his prophets and so on... and i felt like i came home, like i had entered a room i knew very very well but i just havent been there for so long time... i thought, why do you tell me all this, i know that this is the truth for so long time, al hamdoulilah!!!
i returned very healthy and happy to germany in summer 2003 and i believed in god!!! i returned to brazil twice in the following years for vacations just to try to realise what had happened to me and how much i had been blessed with every experience i made, maybe that was His way to guide me, to wake me up and to change my life...at christmas 2003 i met a very nice girl from iraq and i told her that i knew islam was my truth but i had no sources to get more information.. al hamdoulilah she helped me, gave me a quran and took me to a mosque in her city... from that time on i started to read as much as i could get... books about islam, about women in the middle east and so on and so on...
when i became 18 years old i was sure that now i knew enough about islam to say that it was the right way for me, and so i converted few days after my birthday, in february 2004, al hamdoulilah. first i told my mommy and my brother, and al hamdoulilah they took it very nice!!! my mother said once that she knew that when she, coming from a very religious background, raised her children not so practicing one would go back to a religion, she didnt knew which religion but anyways she knew it :) and my brother loves everything i do, hes just too cute!!!
the only problem i was facing was the fact that i wanted to wear hijab like one year after my conversion. my mother was first very much against it, on one hand because she just didnt understand the meaning and advantage of hijab and on the other hand because i come from east germany, and its really not easy for foreigners (or foreign-looking people) in east germany, believe me!!! so she was afraid that i would face discrimination or have major problems just because of hijab. but after she saw how comfortable and well i felt in my hijab she got very quickly on my side and supported me wherever she could, al hamdoulilah!!!
after some time all my family knew about it and accepted me as i am, like always!!! al hamdoulilah, i dont know how i deserve all these blessings, al hamdoulilah al hamdoulilah!!! i dont think that ive lost friends because i came to islam, i have lost friends when i went to brazil or when i finished high-school and moved but the very important people in my life are still on my side before and after islam, al hamdoulilah!!! after finishing high school i moved to west germany because with hijab you are not very welcome in the east, unfortunately. and i dont want to live somewhere where people stare very angry at you and tell you to go back to your country because here you are stealing their jobs...
anyways all these little problems are nothing compared to the blessings i got. my heart feels so warm and wide, there are so many tears inside of me, tears of joy!! my life is very calm now, very peaceful and serene. i am still studying... allahu alem where i will go, allahu alem when and whom i am going to marry someday, allahu alem what will happen in my future but i know everything will be like it should be because i am in His hands, i am here to serve Him and He is here to guide me and protect me and let me go through the things He has prepared for me, al hamdoulilah!
thank you very much for reading these lines. may Allah bless you. as salamu aleikum,
ur sister... ur laura
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28 opinions:
i love your pic Laura. You look so cute in abaya and hijab!
I just love her, her pic too and her story, it's humbling to know that she found Allah just because she wants protection from this dangerous world and she found it on her own.
Allah bless u
it is so sad that Laura beside her uncle and grandfather never heard Jesus' good news... when I read converts stories most of them said that they were raised in Christian families but from their explanations is obvious that maybe they called themselves Christians but they didn't have Jesus... they maybe went to church but they weren't part of His body... BIG difference... Christians are those who follow Jesus in their action, words, lifestyle, who have His spirit in them, who are transformed by His Spirit and Word.... sorry, but I had to say this...
Natasa - for us that isnt the issue.. its usually because we grow up Christian but dont accept that God had a son or is apart of a trinity and so on. We believe God is ONE only.
When we come to know that Islam sees jesus as a prophet like all other prophets - then that makes sense to us.
Especially when jesus himself never said he was God and when asked he said basically "Everything i do is through God, i do nothing nothing of myself"
What a great story, I love this series.
Mash'Allah Laura, your story is so inspiring!!
Ange, I agree with Mona...keep them coming :-)
MashaAllah Laura you're story was inspiring! May Allah bless you and keep you protected. Ameen!
I know how Islam think of Jesus... but His words don't allow this opinion... I just don't understand why all of you converts say that you are "ex-Christians" when is obvious from yours testimonies that you didn't have deep inner relationship with Jesus (I don't speak of empty theology, christless religion, go-to-church thing)...
we cant have an inner-relationship or any kind of 'relationship' with jesus because he was a prophet. A messenger from God but still a man.
The only inner-relationship we can have is with God himself - not his prophets.
We look to prophets as an example of how to live our lives, but we dont claim to have them within us or have a relationship with them.
please explain what u mean by "His words don't allow this opinion"
Salam. This is a very touching story. Thanks to both Laura and Ange. I love this series too.
Ruth
as salamu aleikum to you all.
thank u very much for all these sweet and warm words!!!
may Allah bless and guide us all, ameen.
@Ange: concerning that abaya, actually it was you who inspired me to wear abaya and so after some research on fashion and stuff i started to sew them by my self and now i just wear abaya and feel very happy. so thank you very much because u helped me to make this decision.
yazak Allah kheir
take care, laura
laura - aaww shucks.. alhamdulilah.
well honestly you look soo cute in abaya!
you should show us how you make them!
hehhee, ur soo sweet ur self dear!!! well, inshallah in february ill have more time to make a new abaya so then ill make some pictures inshallah and tell you how i did it... inshallah
ma salamah
Natasa: I WAS raised by a very practicing Christian family while not my own, and they are still most deeply accepting of my conversion to Islam (my Catholic mother is not, nor my agnostic father), but Ange is right, I personally had a deep relationship with Jesus, as I love him, but I rejected people saying he was the son of God. It is not a thing that made his life of any value. It is not a thing he ever said himself. It is not historically based, but is in fact imitation of some basic bleeding god mythology such as the Egyptian Horus, and some other Celtic God who is crucified, but very familiar to Romans and that area at the time. The Catholic Church (a little after early Christianity where there still hadn't been the conference of Nicea---I am talking after they HAD the vote to decide Jesus was the son of God) the Church inherited the mythology of Isis for Mary, and Jesus's story became woefully similair to a that of a Celtic pagan God who has crucified on a cross and rose from the dead. Anyways, as a Muslim, there were too many holes in the story to rely on it, even raised in the strong Christian practicing background I was surrounded in (the women in that household were more similar to my Islamic beliefs than indeed many Muslims).
Noor Dini: MashaAllah. May Allah S.W.T bless you and keep you safe, ameen.
Laura: May Allah S.W.T bless you also, increase your imaan, and keep you safe, ameen.
im actually reading a historical book now written by a clergyman of the church and its all about the beginnings of christianity in Rome.
Pixie is right - they threw so many different beliefs into Christianity from previous relligions.. then comes the Council at Nicea where they even voted on women's roles in the Church and basically had them demoted in every way possible way. Even during this time some major Christian groups protested and denounced the Council's version of Christianity and rejected the idea of Jesus being God and opposed this idea as sinful and against Jesus' true teachings. But with Rome being Rome, their 'put-together' voted-on version reigned supreme and is now what we know as the Catholic Church.
So Natasa - as much as we all love Prophet Jesus and respect and follow his teachings, we do not accept that he is God. And we do not accept the Bible 100% because that book has been changed sooo much in History by the Church and Kings, that to this day no Bible we read today matches word for word the oldest Bibles still in human hands. and did you know that also at the Council of Nicea these men voted on what BOOKS would be included in the Bible? They excluded some books such as the Gospel of Barnabas which was actually written by a companion of Jesus (who by the way claims that Jesus was not God and purely a man and even states that jesus was angry at people who worshipped him) and instead decided to include 4 gospels by 4 men, who have no last names (bit strange for any historical writer) who lived after Jesus' death and never met the man... and coincedently have word-for-word sentences in each other's gospels, which makes Biblical Scholars theorise that they were copied off each other (in particular the gospel according to Mark.
nice story Laura,
May Allah make us better muslims
Amine
MashaAllah Laura - deine geschichte ist wirklich sehr schon - und ja ich weiss genau wast du meinst mit Ost Deutchland, da hab ich auch fuhr jahre gelebt und weil ich dan nicht islam practiciert habe wahr ich immer nuhr ein auslender :(!
Very beautiful & touching story!! Barak Allahu feeki for sharing it with us and inspiring us, Sister :-D You do look very beautiful in the jilbab, BTW!
To Natasa & All: No Christian in this world today follows what Jesus truly taught. The only group of people who did were the people who lived during the Messiah's time and followed his true message after he ascended into Heaven. They were of course persecuted for preaching Islam by way of Jesus' statements.
(Why was there a vote for deciding if Jesus really was the "son of God"?)
Believing in the miracle birth of the blessed Virgin Maryam (who is accredited as being one of the most purest women in history and will be one of the 4 women leading us) is obligatory on every Muslim. To deny the birth, life and miracles of Jesus (by the permission of Allah) is to deny the Quran and various ahadith that speak of the matter.
OKay, I am done now :-D
I am glad you found a religion you can believe in. you never had that before your conversion. you never really knew Jesus before and don't know Him know. you believe he was born miraculously, but don't see hoe He could be a man and God at the same time. The One God of all that is created. The council of Nicea may have voted on that matter, but it was definitely not when that was first believed. Jesus Himself said He was God, Paul expressed that belief throughout the new testament. Hebrews and Colossians especially defend who Jesus Christ was thought to be. It's not too late to get to know Him and Ii pray that you do.
look anon.. i could sit here and type away all my beliefs against the trinity, jesus as god, the nicea council, integration of pagan religions into christianity.. i would be here all day.
im firm in islam. you can pray all you want... it aint gonna happen.
pray for something more important - like peace for palestine.
And when you pray - make sure it is to God and not to Jesus - so Allah will hear you.
@Natasa
To be a Christian one dont need to have a deep inner relationship with Jesus. They belief in the basic principal of Christianity..either they pactice it or not that was a different matters all together. Many Christian in the world doest life as Christian should.Some merely a born Christian, the attand the sunday church yet doent have deep inner relationship wth the Jesus. Many of them in the US, and they happily celebrated the christmas...
Looking at your words, you have read(learn?) a bit about Islam and their prophets. I would encourage you my dear, to read some more...
I won't accentuate anything here, just read and ponder. be fair and weight between the two.untill then have a interesting journey then.
@laura
Salam,
Yours case is not an isolated cases, many has been travel the same journey before you and saw the significant differences beween their old faith and the religion of Islam. The new gain knowledge have englighten then like never before...especially for the Cristian they can reconnect the chain of events and fill the gap that is abundance in the Bible(of many version) as well as the contradiction within the scriptures themself.
IPV6 -
that is a pefect way to describe it..
filling in the gaps and reconnecting. that is exactly how i felt when i was still not a muslim but learning about islam.. i felt like i was putting the missing pieces of a puzzle together
Ange and Pixie, you two gave great explanations for your beliefs.
Laura: I wish I has as much stregth as you. May Allah SWT continue to bless you.
salam laura,
may Allah be with u ALWAYS :) ur story really have touched me today.
As a christian before, it should'nt be any difficulty to see the contradict scriptures in their holly book(as some part has been long lost(due to effect of nature and unsophisticated writting material) and some parts has been alter by human to their liking), on how many big wing and factions that don't even recognized others as Christian..
hi Laura!
your post intrigued me so much that i couldnt sleep for like 2 nights! I am also german and 20 years old...and still struggling with my faith! It's amazing how your mother accepted your choice...i wished my mum would, too!
umm, there are so many questions i'd love to ask you...
wslm :)
sepha
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